Full of Joy

and there they are! my beautiful bff and her brand new baby boy! (oh- and garrett, the wonderful husband! :) don't ask how i got this picture up: i told you, i'm just really smart! ;)

here is a beautiful picture of katie, garrett, and garrett james, jr. it would have been THEE perfect way to top off my last few posts- this beautiful picture. but, no. it won't work. this is what happends when i try to upload it. i am posting it to prove my point. these sordof things happen to me. i do not understand why. i consider myself an intelligent person, yet things are always happening to me that make me look like an idiot. i'll be working really hard at trying to figure some thing out, can't get it, and some one else comes along and BANG. they solve the problem in 2.5 seconds. why me?! i stand making copies at the holiday store. i need 30 copies total. the stupid thing runs out of paper. i get the manager, he adds paper. fine. we're back on track. 30 seconds later it tells me i am "using the wrong size paper". excuse me? i'm just standing there. mr. manager comes back over again, shoves me out of the way- clearly annoyed, open...

the BABY is here! :)

my kate is in labor right now! i still have this overwhelming sense that i should be there. it's taking every thing in me not to get in my car, or fly home right this instant. (forget the fact i have zero dollars to do this!) sigh. i keep calling and checking in with garrett (the husband), but it doesn't quite feel like enough. i want to BE THERE. last time i called, garrett told me the baby was born, and 30 pounds. haha! men. he's so sweet- said i can call as much as i want, and any time i want. love that kid. by the time i get home from work, i could be an "aunt"! YEAH! that makes me so happy!!

meet katie. katie-girl, kate, girl, puuuuuurple, or BFF as i affectionately call her. sigh. i miss her tonight. not just tonight, my heart misses her a lot. we became best friends when i was around 16, and she was 17. no matter how old we were, our excuse for any thing naughty that we did was that we were "only gonna be 16 and 17 once" or whatever age we were- the formula always applied. katie and i bonded rather quickly once we met- our boyfriends were friends. we dumped them, and have been bff's ever since! we were like one in high school. if ever one of us went somewhere without the other, people got really confused. we schemed. we gamed. we laughed. we got boys to buy us things. we lived life to the FULL. we had countless sleepovers, skipped school, stole off private property, went dancing, and were the queens of downing a full pizza at one time. oh how we lived! fun was always part of our vocabulary. we even had our own voice that we used. it was called the "pu...

in response to my roommate, and so-called "friend's" harsh, and completely inaccurate account of my latest guitar hero accomplishment, i have no choice but to defend my case. i'll admit, playing a video game is definately not typical, abby-fashion entertainment. i've been known to roll my eyes at my little (bigger!) brother a time or two as he obsessively poured over his own guitar hero endeavor. i've been known to yawn and maybe mock the boys at work a little as they talked for hours about this particular topic. but let me tell you, my friends, i stand shamefully mistaken. a mere week and 2 days ago, guitar hero I, II, and III came into my very own possession. (swz attempted once, but let's just say...we'll leave the rocking to me.) it was love at first strum. i played the easy songs, eventually beat the first battle, quickly moved up to medium and got stuck for days at my second encounter with tom. he mocked me. he toyed with me. he played g...

i haven't updated my blog about tricia because her husband, nate, does such a fantastic job. i added his link to my sidebar. thanks to all of you who have asked me about her, prayed for her, and who check nate's blog on your own. she is fully awake now, and has been able to watch the video of her baby for the first time. pretty powerful stuff. The Body never ceases to amaze me...

there are just those certain moments in life that are like little, light-shining lightning bugs that you wish you could catch, put in a jar and save forever.

wow...my God is in the business of doing miracles...

i can't stop thinking about her. my heart just aches. i read her husband's blog for updates, but i am left feeling helpless, and wanting to know more. i want to cry. i want to write her letters. i want to express that i remember her as a beautiful friend. i want her to know that i think of her. it's so amazing to me that a childhood friend could evoke such strong feelings and emotions- even almost 20 years later. i remember tricia used to LOVE hermit crabs. she has several as pets. i remember we used to play heart family dolls in her room. i remember she used to take a ridiculous amount of pills- and she sometimes ate them broken up in her apple sauce. her parents would pound on her back several times a day- i would watch, and we'd just keep talking and laughing like it was the most normal thing in the world. she would also have to keep this tube thing in her mouth several times a day- and steam would be pouring out the other end. i was well aware that she had a disease...

from KG through third grade, one of my very best friend's names was tricia kirschner. (she is now lawrenson upon getting married!) she had cystic fibrosis, and as a kid, i didn't realize the extent of her health issues. i used to visit her in the hospital, but she was always happy and smiling! anyway, i have just recently heard that she gave birth to a baby girl, gwenyth, quite prematurely, and it will be a miracle for both mom and baby to survive. my heart aches for my childhood best friend. i am asking that you please pray for her and for her baby right now! tricia was/is in the process of having a double lung trasplant. for more information, you can check out her husband's blog: http://cfhusband.blogspot.com/ please pray. and thank you.

i find myself with still too much to say, and not enough words to say it with. i feel it is important to at least let you know this. there is so much on my mind! there are a lot of new things that i am thinking about, feeling, wondering about, living with, wrestling through...mostly, i just want to LIVE. really, truly LIVE. i want to be the best version of ME that i can possibly be. the woman God so designed me to be. i have a plan to help me LIVE...and am excited to get started on it. it's a little more personal, saved for my own journal. i have been journaling more then blogging lately. it's been a good outlet for me. it's been needed. sometimes it's better that the world doesn't know EVERY little detail about my soul...