What Am I Thinking?

i finally joined the gym again. it's been a long time coming. and as i get ready for my loooooong day tomorrow, i ask myself "what am i thinking?" running again? blah. i guess it's because i've turned into a bit of a blob. the time has come. i need to be healthy. it's very important to me to take care of my body. it's just that i have really enjoyed not exercising these past few months. all my life, i've been obsessed with working out, and it's been nice to just come home and not worry about it. i need to make a list of why i run (or work out in some other way) to help keep my attitude upbeat. it seems as if the downside of the list is way bigger.

why run?

it's important for my heart
it lowers stress
a good stress reliever
helps me to vent when i'm angry
i feel good about myself
allows me to eat more
burns calories
lose some of the blob

ok. i still don't feel better. it's taking all my restraint not to write all the bad things about running again...but alas. i will prevail. i will be disciplined.

i will run.